Finally getting back in control

I just got back from my first run in a YEAR! (9months pregnancy + 3 months pp) Now I’m home, showered, teeth brushed (new moms understand what an accomplishment that can be) and feeding my little son 😊💜

I’ve never said my weight to anyone other than a medical professional in my LIFE. Ive always struggled with body image issues. At my happiest (not skinniest), I was 170 at my wedding (below). After losing my first baby in a miscarriage I struggled with intense depression for a year while unsuccessfully TTC. By the time I got pregnant with Thomas I weighed 190. I gained a ridiculous amount of weight during pregnancy but what’s worst lost all muscle tone when I got put on bedrest for preeclampsia at 30 weeks. By the time I delivered at 37 weeks I weighed 240. I’m certain my blood pressure issues and preeclampsia were in part due to how unhealthy I was/am.

Now I am 210 and have a LONG way to go to be healthy. However for the first time in a long time I am happy and ready to tackle my health. My goal is to be a little happier with how I look by my sisters wedding in March where I will be maid of honor. Not planning on crash dieting or anything stupid (I am a chemist so I do know to avoid detoxes and other quack science).

Not saying if you are this weight you are also unhealthy, this is just my experience. Saying all this out loud is cathartic for me.

At my wedding:

Right before getting pregnant a year later (I’m on the far right):

Six months pregnant at a friends wedding:

Just a few weeks ago with husband and son: