Acne controls my life

I really need to get this off my chest. Ok so I really hate talking about my acne to people in person because a lot of times people just say “I’ve seen worse” and stuff like that.. but it’s still there. Yes, I have seen worse acne too but I still really do have acne not just one of those people that considers a few pimples on their face acne. But whenever I don’t wear makeup to cover it which is often because I don’t like wearing makeup at all and it makes it worse, i just want to hide my face and constantly think about it all day keeping me in a bad mood thinking why can’t I just have clear skin, I would be so pretty without acne. I would have more confidence and wouldn’t have a problem with my hair pulled back shaking my face and not wanting to always have my hair down to cover up my cheeks as much as possible. I started birth control a few weeks ago and being patient to see whether it’s gonna clear up my acne or not is really really hard.. I would literally die of happiness if it cleared up my skin but I don’t wanna get my hopes up :( I also have an extremely bad fear of the birth control making my acne worse which I’ve heard of happening to people. I just don’t know what to do anymore it honestly takes over my day and makes me feel gross and ugly and I just wanna be happy and not mind people looking at my face for once that’s all I want. Any advice ?