It has been officially 14 months since trying for a baby.

Once we got to the 8th month we were wondering what's wrong. So we went to the doctors they ran a few test and turns out my hormone level has signs of PCOS. They tell me that due to my weight that is also what's making it difficult. So the doctors sent a referral out for me to have a scan and another referral for the gym. 2 weeks ago I recieved the gym letter (which I have a consultation for today. Pretty excited) but my scan letter still hadn't arrived. So I phoned them got put through to 5 people who just kept passing me on until finally got put through to a very lovely lady who told me that I probably won't recieve an appointment for another 6-7 months. I just want to cry at this point, I'm not going to know if or how many cyst I could have.

Me and my fiance have been trying continuously each month. Doing the same technique or a different one. We've even counted days ourselves, used the app and determined by CM since my periods are so irregular.

Then it comes to today. A day before my period. When you do a test and think this could be today.

But again nothing. No second line. Wanting to cry. Feeling like a failure and my fiance wanting this just as bad as me.

I don't know how those who have been trying to get pregnant for years are doing it. How are you staying sane 😭😭😭