I don’t know what happened... ***TRIGGER WARNING, DETAILED STORY***
So I went to hang out with some friends this past weekend and we decided to have fun, aka smoke and drink. We are in high school and I should be smarter but what happened Saturday night, I think it was wrong. It definitely didn’t feel right. Basically we were going to sleep and it’s me, my friend who’s gay, I’ll call him Jacob and another guy friend but he isn’t gay, I’ll call him Tyler. Well Jacob slept between us and I was scratching his head, he suggested that I scratch Tyler’s so I did. Tyler made it weird by moaning so I stopped and we all decided to go to sleep. Jacob was passed out and I was slowly falling asleep but then I heard Tyler cussing and moaning. Then I heard him masturbating, it was very awkward (it only makes it more awkward that we all slept on the same bed) so I just tried to go to sleep. But then Tyler reached over and he was touching my arm. Then he started rubbing it and he even tried touching my boobs but I kept my arms cross. I know I should’ve said something but I was so scared, I felt like I lost my voice. Then he started squeezing my arm really tight, which I assumed he came, so I just tried to fall asleep and forget it. But then about twenty minutes later, I hear Jacob and Tyler talking and they’re talking about asses. I thought it was funny but then Tyler made a remark about mine. Saying it was big and then he grabbed it. Jacob stayed silent and Tyler kept grabbing it really rough. Again, I didn’t say anything because I was scared. I was hoping Jacob would but he must’ve been shocked too. Then they were going back to sleep and honestly, I think this part is the worst. As they were falling asleep, I felt Tyler put his hand over me and he put it on my thigh, he kept rubbing it and then took his hand back but he put it back on me but not on my thigh. He grabbed my *area* and squeezed it really hard. That’s when I actually said something because it caught me by surprised. I asked him what he was doing and he sounded surprised and just said sorry. Then in the morning, he pretended like nothing ever happened. Even today when I saw him, he didn’t even say anything. What makes me mad the most is the fact that he thought I was asleep and that I didn’t know what was happening. I tried telling Jacob but he likes Tyler so he doesn’t believe me, he also said if it did happen, it’s because of what I was wearing but I was just wearing sweatpants and a tee. I just want to know, what do I call this? Was it rape? Sexual harassment? And how do I go on from this, I’m too scared to speak out and I’m worried nobody will take me serious because we were drinking and smoking. Just please help.
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