Okay so , after months and months of denying depression I have came to the conclusion that I am depressed . I had my son back in June, but I don't think this is postpartum depression because it's been going on long before his birth and I love him to pieces and I've never had any bad thoughts towards him and the depression isn't affecting me caring for him or my daughter. I've been through a lot with my children's father and I think that plays a big role in my depression, also I am a very deep over-thinker and over-lover lol I really don't know what to do .. it's literally coming to a point where all I want to do is feed and take care of my kids , but nothing else . I don't want to clean .. I don't want to leave my house .. I'm not eating very much .. I don't want to vent to anyone except my kids father (because I don't want judgement) and he's the worst communicator and worst comforter in the world 😞 I don't want to take medication because I've read the side affects .. but I seriously need help . I don't know what to do to make myself feel better . The only thing that helps are my children but my mind and well being is not healthy, even if I put on a fake smile and make sure they are happy and taken care of. Have any of you ladies found anything that helps with depression OTHER than medication . I'm lost.