Debating what to do.....

So i am currently 16 weeks and 4 days. I want to know the sex of my baby. We were going to go to a private place and pay for it. But i just cant make up my mind to do it or not to do it. Its so hard. Help me what do you ladies think?

Asked my dr and she said no not til 19 weeks i know thats only a few weeks from now, but we wanted to announce during Christmas but my sil was also doing hers during Christmas which i dont mind either we could do it together but i have no clue on what i want to do. 😭😭

Ultrasound or no ultrasound?