Feeling lost

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I had my miscarriage in August and have been trying ever since to no avail. I have a son and i got pregnant with him and with my angel girl so easily, now that we are trying so hard it isn’t happening and i can’t stand it. I really wanted my rainbow before Christmas and i know it’s not coming. I am timing sex perfectly with ovulation so i don’t get it. I feel as if my miscarriage / d&c is making me not fertile anymore. It really hurts to think i would’ve been 3 months away from my due date. I just feel so lost.