I have always dreaded the holidays as I'm an only child and this year I'll be away from family and friends. Previous years have always been a bummer cause my family never did anything and I never had someone to talk to and I was always that odd cousin out cause I had no siblings. I spent Thanksgiving with my ex and it was amazing, but he's not texting me back so I doubt we'll do something for Christmas.

It sucks cause I've always wanted to create a big family but a year ago I was told I have PCOS and I'm worried I'll forever be alone cause my mom and step dad aren't close to my relatives and I won't have extended family from that and I might not be able to have a kid or more than one