Scared to have sex again!? 8 week old

My son is 8 weeks old. I had a normal delivery but a lot of stitches and it was very swollen and sore for many weeks.. gross I know but I still get yellow discharge (normal I don’t know?).. but I’m terrified to have sex again.. I pushed out a human surely it’s going to hurt!

When did everyone else start again? Was it as bad as im thinking it will be?