Well granted he & I met at party and tended to keep it going. Then we fell in love with each other.. Well naturally that changed everything. Then because of difference of lifestyles and him having a child from a prior relationship we decided to part ways even tho it was going to hurt us both, for the love we have is so deep .. Well then I took a test because I was 4 days late.. My whole world seemed like it was rejuvenated and I quit my risque job to settle into being a sahm. . . I was the only one who quit partying

he doesn't seem to understand he's the father of a child yet to be born & we as parents must provide& prepare for her/him (I find out next week the sex of the baby via the nips tests).

His lack of will for self control has me on edge and ready to go on& continuing to be a webcam model ... I know it's not an idealistic circumstances but I'm not going to watch him fade away before my eyes while he promised to get help & carry my ball..

I am well aware just because he wanted to be superman doesn't mean addiction won't have her way on he stands that b*tch in the face and ko's like street fighter..

I recently told him to get out of my house and life, he can always call me about the baby or the baby's appointments or to check on me.

I know he loves me but I just love my child otw more.. Can any one relate?