I Really Need Feedback, Ladies. Please?

Courtney • Engaged!💍♥️ 11/06/19 🥺👣 Baby #2 coming December 2020💙👣

UPDATE: 12/15/18: AF showed. 😭 Right before I was about to go to sleep. And now I’m just laying here crying. Wanting to wake up my husband, but he hasn’t been feeling well, so I don’t want to bother him just to crush his hopes, too. It can wait for the morning. 💔 I’m so upset. I’m to the point where I think I can’t have babies. And it’s really bothering me. The only thing I’ve ever wanted to do in life is be a mommy. And I feel like I won’t get to have that. It’s tearing me apart. 😭😭😭

AF is 5 days late. I tested a day before AF was supposed to show. And it came back negative. I am 19 DPO today. I’m scared to test because I don’t want it to be negative. I’ve been ttc for almost a year now, trying for my first baby. With no luck. 😔 Have you, or anyone you know, got their BFP past 16 days after ovulation? Or am I out this month, just treat it as a late period and forget about testing? I don’t know what to do here. Thank you for all of your input. ♥️