Why me?

KaSara

I had my first miscarriage November 5th, lost my baby at 4 weeks 5 days. My hgc dropped to 27, then to 7 the next day.....I was devisated and didn't want to try again. My doctor told me to wait 2 weeks so after my two weeks I decided to try but not try if that makes sense. Anyway I fell pregnant again very soon. I discovered I was pregnant last Wednesday. I prayed my body would hold this baby but I began to spot last night. Still holding on to hope, I woke yo pain and heavy bleeding this morning. I went to the Emergency room, my hcg levels were at 29 before I left but My ultrasound showed no baby 💔. The doctor said it could be to early and sent me home and to check back with my normal doctor in a few days to see if my levels will double or drop. I want to so badly hold on to hope but I know this feeling and I know what has already happened. I wanted to announce my pregnancy to my husband and family on Christmas. Why won't my body hold my babies??? I am in tears and so disappointed to the point where I don't plan to try again 💔💔😢😢 I just want my babies!