Mind games

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Heres the thing, so I’m obsessed with the Beatles. Around the time I got pregnant, a good friend of mine got me a few CDs and I kept them in my car to listen to. I’ve had hyperemesis gravidarum throughout my whole pregnancy and when I first got pregnant I was living in a small 1 bedroom apartment, and the toilet had mold growing in it. No amount of bleach could get rid of it! So I was constantly puking all day into this moldy toilet, and all I could smell was the mold. I listened to the CDs a LOT when I first got them, and then backed off a little. I moved from the apartment and everything, but whenever I tried listening to the CDs again, I got immediately nauseous and could literally smell the mold from that toilet. Even tonight, at almost 38 weeks pregnant, I tried listening to my favorite song, “When I’m 64”, and had to pull over on the side of the road to vomit and was punched in the face with the overwhelming smell of that mold- even though I haven’t gotten sick since October! Has anybody else experienced this ? Do you think it’ll go away? I’m afraid to bring it up to friends, family, or even my doctor. I’m sure it’s all mental of course, but it’s driving me absolutely crazy. I just want to listen to my favorite music.