Trying to find motivation

It's been 2 years since I last got pregnant with my second miscarriage. I've settled with the fact that I may never be a mother, and am some what ok with. With that being said I feel like my one motivation to loose weight was to be a mother, with my chances being slim I'm having a hard time actually finding a reason to take care of my health. I've gained alot of weight in the past 4 years and 2 miscarriages not to mention having leaky gut syndrome, but I can't seem to committee to my health. How can I get motivated again??