Anyone else having a hard time with weight gain?

Not a hard time gaining weight, just a hard time accepting the fact that weight gain is inevitable during pregnancy..I'm 16 weeks with my 3rd and it has not gotten easier. I was raised to believe that a woman should not be big, I know that isnt true because big is beautiful and I'd never judge someone on their weight, but for me personally I look horrible if I'm over 120 pounds! I cry every day when I get dressed because my hips and thighs are not fitting my pants anymore, I've always gained 60+ pounds during my pregnancies so I should be used to it, I just cant stop crying about it!! How do you guys make yourselves feel okay with weight gain?! I want to be able to accept it and be confident but I cant stop hating myself 😭😭😭