Postpartum depression

I think I have postpartum depression. I wasn’t in a good place when I got pregnant. My now ex boyfriend was emotionally abusive, controlling and manipulative. He took advantage of the fact that I never healed from being assaulted a few years ago and that I desperately needed a man I could trust. I don’t regret saving my child from a lifetime of misery, but I do feel like I was never able to make the choice for myself. I miss my baby every single day. I don’t know if it’s even fair to say I had postpartum depression because I only held my baby for 7 weeks but I still miss my baby.