I’m 13w+ and I feel SO reluctant to announce! I’ve been quite open with our fertility struggles over the past 5 years, and I know there are others in my circles who may be struggling also but aren’t open about it.

I know the mixture of feelings I had when people close to me got pregnant and I just couldn’t. I don’t want to be the person making anyone else feel that way! And I just want it to be my secret for a while!

I also have terrible anxiety and am quite a social recluse, so the thought of replying to lots of well wishers is already making me anxious. Sigh. I’m so conflicted about all these feelings. I know my MIL and mom are impatient for everyone to know (what with having had to put up with the endless “How many kids does your daughter/son have now?” all these years!) but I don’t feel ready at all. It doesn’t help that I’m already starting to show and can’t hide it much longer as well!

Sigh. I just need a hug 😫