Just got home from our apt. I’m heart broken. The short version is that I have a traumatic brain injury from an assault. I have filters by my heart because I had blood clots. I have moya moya, a rare genetic desease that makes your blood vessels smaller then what they should be. Because of my brain injury (an anyarism and a brain bleed) I cannot do anything to thin my blood. It is so sensitive I even have to watch what I eat. The infertility wasn’t a problem they said they can fix almost any problem. The problems are that the stress alone could do a number on my brain and that if I were to get pregnant I would need to take blood thinners which I cannot. If I were to get pregnant I could either 1. Risk the blood clots giving me a heart attack or

2. Risk the blood thinners giving me a stroke

We decided against it as it is too high of a risk

I personally don’t believe in <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> (not judging anyone that does) or having someone else carry my baby.

The only option for us now is adoption. We had planned on adopting anyways but we really wanted to have one of our own as well.

I’m so heart broken. I feel like less of a women and it’s all because some drunk dumb ass beat me up years back. Threw all of my brain surgeries I have kept forgiveness in my heart and have always tried to see the good that came out of my assault. Right now I’m just hurt and madder then hell.