Loss of My little Angel.

Joahnna

Just after 5 years of Trying I was able to conceive.I was 11 weeks when I started lightly bleeding.I rushed to the ER to rule out any Miscarriage.I got Ultrasound Done 2 times And One Transviginal.They lady Was so Perky when she took me in.Then as she looked at my pictures of the baby and took so many.Then did the Tranviginal her face changed.I saw no HEARTBEAT no light up on my babys heart.Her face expression I just knew it was all wrong.When I went to the room to get ready to get the news.The Doctor Said there was a fetus but no heart to be found which is why I was bleeding.Oh the Heartbreak.Then they later come with 3 options.Let it pass Naturally...Take medication go home and Let it pass or take it out.I rushed to the decision to Scrape it out.I couldnt bare thw pain of the cramps they were awful.I feel so empty and so heartbroken.My husband is so broken but he is being strong for me.He thought I didnt hear him cry to his mom last night.He though I was asleep.This pain is overwhelming.Took a couple days off.My head is just not there to think straight.I cant believebit.I was so healthy and strong to house my baby.He or she 2 weeks ago was so biggy and his heart was so strong as was heard for the first time and it was normal.I dont understand.