Idk who knows

I hate working nights. my mind races with thoughts. tonight it is watching my mom an aunt grow old. it hurts. watching as they can't grip a can anymore to open it. or even a soda bottle. watching my mom's lupus wither her away. her memory use to be so great.. it ain't anymore. she gets tired alot quicker. she use to help me with my homework. if I need help with my son's.. she struggles with that now. watching as she struggles to walk through walmart for a while. today I asked if she could call to see if my son could get in to get his hair cut..i had to sleep after work an they weren't open until whatever time. when I woke up. I had no text. the worse thought came to mind.. I knew she had to go to the store so I thought she maybe fell going to her car an got knocked out. or she took a nap an didn't wake up from it. I worry my aunt will be outside an fall an hurt herself an won't be able to get up. she don't own a cell phone an if she did.. the recep is shit. my aunt fell the other day outside on ice but was thankfully able to get up. last year she was on a stool at home reaching for something an fell.. didn't tell anybody it happened until a few days later. they both each live alone. it hurts watching them grow old. knowing their time is limited here. especially my mom since all her health issues. they are the closest people to me.. idk what i'll do when they are gone. 😭😣😞😭😣😞