Im only 20 and have never wanted a child im not stable and have no job or anything im just staring out life and about to start collage. The doctor told my boyfriend he was infertile.. today i was 10 day late and took a posotive pee test. I want an abortion im freaking out how expensive is it does it hurt. Everyones gunna hate me

What do i do.

Im also not emotionally stable i have really bad depression and batts with suicide. I deffinetly cant do this. My grandmother who i live with will hate me because i havent even started collage ill be such a disappointment.