Most of you would say im a bad person

Just a little background. I work full time Monday-Friday as a “receptionist” (i do more than just answer phones) in a hair salon. There is a Saturday receptionist that only works Saturdays.

I understand people need to work and make money so she has a second full time job.

Just keep in mind that at my job, i have to find coverage for any time i need to be out, or tell my boss at least a week in advance (emergencies are very hard to deal with). When i need any time off i can not ask her to cover because she is working, so im not really relying on her. But if the role is reversed i am expected to cover for her on a Saturday even if i work my normal 5 days 40hr work week. No there is no over time, its just the extra few hrs from the day.

With that being said. My brother is a porter so he is on duty all day Christmas day. We are going to celebrate tomorrow Saturday because he is off.

So the Saturday receptionist just text me that her mother had a heart attack and shes not sure whats going to happen and if she will have to stay and what not, which I completely understand.

From my experience all i can think about is me getting a text in the morning to cover for her. I am exhausted its not easy work while pregnant im super uncomfortable at this point. Standing, sitting, laying down. Theres no way im working. I know it sounds horrible and selfish but i just cant get up another morning taking a 30min bus and a 40min subway ride (never getting a seat, anyone who lives in NYC knows people rarely give up a seat even if ur belly is in there face!) to only have one day off and then go back into work on Monday (yep Christmas eve) then be off Tuesday to go back on Wednesday. I just cant.

But I’m writing this because i do feel bad about it. I know it’s selfish of me to only be thinking of myself in this situation but I’m pregnant and i don’t need the extra day of work stress on myself. Im barely making it to on my regular days.

Lord Jesus help me 😩