I’m a mom of four. Just had my youngest last month. My whole pregnancy I was scared because we found out she might have a rare syndrome and had a chance of dying in utero or birth. Which after birth we got another test and it confirmed it. Yes she’s alive and doing great so far which I am so thankful for. I’ve always had depression since elementary school, semi fucked up life growing up. I just want to be happy with mostly everything, I want to feel happy I guess and not irritated or mad all the time, Especially at my husband and older kids. I’ve tried all the anxiety and depression meds besides the ones that knock you out like Xanax for example. I don’t even want to wake up anymore. My kids are the only reason I’m here and I have no one else. No one in my family understands. They always say well how can you be depressed when you have such cute kids and shit like that. It’s really irritating. Has anyone tried anything natural besides weed that helped?