I think I’m crazy

I posted a while ago about the guy I’m seeing and how I told him to stop during sex as the condom broke and he didn’t and ended up ejaculating in/on me..

Since then I’ve tried to move past it but I seriously can’t. I’m beginning to seriously hate him. Literally everything about him pisses me off and makes me so angry. Stuff that before I used to shrug off makes me so cross that I find myself accidentally being so bitchy and sarcastic with him about.

He’s head over heels for me and was begging for forgiveness just a week ago. But seriously even the thought of kissing him (which I avoid as much as possible) makes me feel gross. I feel terrible.

Do you think there’s hope? Should I keep trying? I am trying to go back to how things were and “get over it” but it is very difficult.