Feeling defeated.

I feel so defeated I'm going to be pregnant forever. Today is my due date according to my family dr. And I have only had a couple contractions the last couple days nothing else. My body aches so bad and all I wanna do is sleep but that's not even comfy. I only stated gaining weight in October and sense then I've gained 35lbs it seemed to have happened all at once. I'm not effaced or anything dr. Just says yup baby is low. I just wanna cry at this point. Rant over