Since having my first back in May... my own mother has been weighing in on my life in all the wrong ways. I’ve been out of work since I went on leave a month before having my daughter. My mother has rubbed it in my face that I’m not working. Or any little bit of money that I get, I blow it on myself. Which isn’t true. I receive money every month for her and it all goes to her. And I have had some people help me with money for myself. So of course i use it for myself. It’s just she makes me feel very worthless and I’m not okay mentally still from postpartum so it’s like she adds onto my stress and I can’t do anything.. I mainly drink and talk to my girlfriend about these things but these days it’s getting harder and harder to even talk to anyone. This is my first at motherhood.. so I’m not necessarily getting things right. Which I know is okay. But for my own mother to make me feel like this is something that pisses me off and I have to stop and catch myself with not yelling at her or anything like that. She makes me hate that I had a baby sometimes because I never saw this side of her towards me and it all just makes me sad and mad as hell. I’m over it all and I’m so ready to give up...