Okay so today I went to the OB because my vagina is being weird and I wanted to know why, like irregular periods, spotting in between periods, cramps with no bleeding, heavy white/light yellow (lotion-y) discharge, heavy bleeding on period and intense cramps on period. Anyway, he obviously doesn’t give a fuck about what i have to say he begins to talk about birth control for fixing my irregular periods and I’ve told him multiple times before I don’t want birth control because not only am I trying to have a baby (havent told him I’m ttc because he’s so harsh when it comes to me not having birth control) but because ive been on it since I was 12 and it’s fucked my period cycle and body, in general, up. It seems like every visit he brings up birth control because I’m only 20yo and I continue to tell him no. I remind him of my symptoms because he was so focused on pushing me to be on birth control then he said I’ll check your abdominal area now and he pushed down on my lower stomach and it feels like a sharp cramp, it hurts bad and I let him know of the pain, he says “okay we’re gonna do a ultrasound unfortunately we can’t do it today but we’re gonna see if there are any cysts or other stuff and by doing the ultrasound we will know if it’s hormonal interference and if that’s the case that can be fixed with hormonal treatment.” The point is I’m afraid to talk to my obgyn about ttc because I don’t want him to look down on me anymore then he already does.. he makes me feel stupid and incapable. Also since he didn’t tell me what could be wrong if you have any ideas considering my symptoms please comment them!!!

Ps I’m worried I can’t conceive😭

Okay so the thing is I’m not being stubborn I’ve considered every option of birth control and I’ve been on them all except the patch and the many IUD’s they all gave me problems, pain and bleeding wise I’ve expressed this to him and he continues to bring BC up and I continue to tell him no and the reason I don’t tell him I’m ttc is because he’s very judgmental. Also, I’ve even talked to my friend about it because she sees him too and she’s having the same problem with him jumping right into birth control without asking about past experience.