Me and my husband have been through a lot he’d done me wrong before and during our relationship I look back at my ig all the depression things I used to look at cuz I just wanted him to notice me or once he did he would use me then say he didn’t want anything serious ... I begged him to give me a chance and if he didn’t wanna he with me then fine ... I just sometimes wish I didn’t beg I wish I would’ve just been pretty enough or good enough for him to want me with out me shoving my self in his face ... I’ve been with him 3 years and we have a son but I still feel like that freshman girl going for the senior that if I don’t do everything he. Wants he will find it else we’re ( cuz he did that when he was in the military and I was home with the baby)

...I hate knowing I’ll never have better and think this for the rest of my life

Cuz I can’t start over I’m afraid to and I love him ...he’s the only man who’s never hit me intentionally....idk wt to do