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Not sure if I’m over thinking things or what. Lemme give you a little back story.

My boyfriend and i have been together since April 2017. He is from Mexico and majority of his family is still in Mexico but he does have some in Illinois. Since we have been together he has went to visit family in Chicago at least 4x. I only went with him once and when we went I didn’t get introduced to his family by him. They introduced themselves and I didn’t talk to them the rest of the time we were there (mostly because of the language barrier. They all speak Spanish and i only speak English). We were in Chicago for a party. At the party he left me alone the whole night and I got upset and took my baby to the car and cried because I felt embarrassed, lonely, disrespected, etc.

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About 6 months ago I brought up his parents, son & siblings. Asking how they were doing and such. Well I asked him “how do they feel about you dating a girl with 3 kids”. He replies “they don’t know about you yet”. I was shocked. I never asked to speak with them because the language barrier. Just always told him to tell them I said “hello” and he would always reply with “okay” so figured they knew about me.

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On Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> 2018 he proposed, asked me to be his wife. I did say yes. I wasn’t expecting it this soon. Christmas Day we went to my family house for dinner. I told him I was excited to tell my mom. And he pretty much said he isn’t. He asked me not to put anything on my Facebook page or my Snapchat story. So I didn’t. I was thinking maybe he just wants it to be a small intimate thing between him and I which would be really sweet if that’s the case. But these last 2 days I been questioning myself like why doesn’t he want people to know? Is he embarrassed of me ? Does he not love me the way he says he does ? Am I over thinking this whole thing ?

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I want to talk to him about it but I’m kinda b*tchy right now considering Aunt Flo is here for one of her monthly visits lol. And I don’t want to be rude or come off the wrong way when I do ask him.

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*& no he doesn’t have any secret girlfriends or side hoes. We trust each other. We can pick each other’s phones up any time of the day without being worried about what we will find lol*

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I’m just so lost. Do I want to marry somebody who can’t even tell their family about me? Ugh , I want to get to know his family as well. His family is important to him and my family is so important to me. I want to be able to visit his family and everything but at this rate I don’t know if that will ever happen 🤷🏻‍♀️

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HELPPPP, any opinions !?