I’ve always been so pro-choice. Like soooo supportive of abortion. And I have never wanted kids. I’ve always said if I got pregnant, I’d get an abortion 110% because I don’t want, nor can I currently provide for, a child.

I’ve been careful, but I slipped up more than once after multiple doctors told me I could never get pregnant, or at least conceive without medical intervention.

Four tests later, I’m pregnant. I’m so terrified. I’m terrified to tell the guy, I’m terrified to abort, I’m just... frozen.

I’m scared of how I will feel after, I’m scared of all the feelings of regret and loss I already have knowing that this isn’t something I’ll go through with (pregnancy, motherhood) and I feel so guilty because I know so many people would give anything to create life and have a baby. I just feel so ungrateful for not wanting it, for not being able to provide for it. I just need some support.