So my best friend attempted to take her own life on Christmas day and almost every day since then i have felt so sad and scared :’(. I feel guilty for feeling this, but i am mad at her as well as feeling upset about the fact I almost lost her. Im mad because as a result of her actions, other people are now hurt as a result. I have attempted suicide myself so I probably sound like a hypocrite and i am completely aware how horrible mental illness can make you feel! But now that i have been on the other side, i know just how bad this can damage those around you and it’s made me think twice about ever taking my own life again.

I message her when i can and i always offer support when she is going through hard times, it’s harder aswell because most of the time she doesn’t want to talk to anyone at all and will refuse to answer messages. Im terrified that one day im going to wake up and she isn’t going to be here anymore 😢😢