The type of feeling i have been feeling all day is like when you lose your mom at the store or when you find out terrible news. My heart feels like it sitting at the bottom of my stomach. I feel like my heart completely broke because of my husbands obsession with video games. This morning when my daughter was still alseep it was just us two up in the living room. I walked infront of him while he was playing his game and he died. He started cussing and went into the kitchen throwing things around. I asked him if he was mad at me and he said yes because I fucking killed him. I didnt do it on purpose. I always walk in front of him. I guess today was different. I dont want to feel like this anymore. On top of that our daughter touched him with her cold hands on his shirtless body and he said "stop touching me! fucking shit!" He calls me and her fucking shit alot. I'm ready to leave. We've been having problems for over a year. I know what 2019 holds for me, my toddler and unborn son. This was the last straw. ✌🏽