So I'm feeling lost and confused and sad. My period this month was a very unusual for me 5 days late....my symptoms where all over the show for af normally I average at a 30 day cycle and have very predictable symptoms that af is coming, sore heavy boobs, cramps and bloating. So all these came and went over a several days leading up to the day af was due and in the days it was late too. I took three tests, all bfp all with fmu after my period was late, bfp was obvious, but none had much color to them just a line all read at the right times ect. Period came in full force after 5 days late and cramping like crazy and a literal bloody waterfall. I have lost two babies in the 18 months we have been trying and this felt like another loss, hot flushes, extreme cramps, bfps with no colouring, tingling boobs ect. I am afraid to go to the doctor and have a third loss confirmed, I'm scared of what it means, im scared of having to see a fertility specialist, I'm scared I will get news of never being able to carry another child (I have one 8 year old), I'm scared of internal exams (after one exceptionally traumatic one when in labour with my first child). I'm just scared, I never thought it would be so hard to convince, and I never knew I would be this afraid to see the doctor. I'm a person who likes to know what's going on with my body and usually dont hesitate to go to my gp as she is wonderful, but this time around i just feel scared and alone. My partner is great and very supportive and caring but still I somehow feel alone and just terrified of going to see the doctor this time. Has anyone else felt like this?