Throughout my hole childhood up to the age of 11-12 my dad hated me. He abused me and my mum both physically and mentally to the point were I hate men up to this day. I always stuck up for myself against him especially when I saw him abusing my mum physically. But the man literally wanted to kill us and everyday I hate him even more but it makes me so upset that my mum married such a horrible person and the fact that I never had a dad that loved me. It was always me out of the three kids that ended up getting abused and that hurts so much to know that he hated me so much. I wake up at night just crying thinking about when he attacked me or when I saw him abuse my mum and I can’t ever get those images out my head.But I could never understand why my dads side of the family keep trying to pressure me into seeing him after 4 years? Can they not possibly see how horrible he was and still is? And why did my mum stay with such an abusive man? (Btw I’m now 16)