Okay, so my boyfriend of one year weretalking about an old friend of mine. We were Bestfriends since 2nd grade up to now, I’m 20. . I mean til this day we’re cool, but we bumped heads because I always gave her the attention of a friend but she always pushed me away once she got into highschool. And I kind of resented her a bit because of it since she chose friends who are prettier, and that fact that she’s very pretty too. etc. and even more because she called a girl that bullied me her bestfriend(although she passed away a few years ago)

Aside from that, she’s pregnant. And I was freaking out because she invited me and it’s a few weeks away. I’m not used to this type of stuff at all. Especially how I feel intimidated by her and her friends just from their look. And I’m not saying I’m trying to look nice for them because thats not it but it’s also for me. It’s more to why I am this way but that’s just different story.

I’m explaining this to my boyfriend and he’s like show me a picture of her. Because at this point I’m very vulnerable and insecure right now, but I sent him a picture anyways and I regretted it even tho I kinda see the point he was going to make. Now let me say this now, I am not a jealous gf. I compliment women everyday I honestly don’t care if a woman is prettier. But it strikes a nerve when he complimented my friend...when I’m vulnerable..when I’m telling you about how I feel and I how felt back then. He immediately says this in his own words “ damnnn, she’s bad as hell” says it more than once. Says “I know why she got pregnant” “she’s bad. I’m not even going to sugar coat it but she’s bad” and then he goes on complimenting me I mean he always do but this one was different. Like the compliments he gave me after that didn’t matter to me. It hurt me like hell to see that the way he complimented her was as if he’s single or that he’s with his boys and I didn’t exist at the moment. Like when he first gave me his IG password, he was following her and liked her pictures. And he told me when we first met he was dming a bunch of girls to really find the “one” which is me, so I knew he tried to get a chance w her and that makes me so fucking sad.

I’m just venting, and I was wondering if any woman dealt with it? Like how do I go about this. I feel that if I bring her around him or if we see her , I know instantly how he thinks of her. Or that if I’m the “ugly” friend. Like I know he loves me I just feel sad and often think of it. It happened a few days ago.