i'm conflicted

so recently i lost my virginity to a pretty awful dude, but i don't regret it at all. so here's the dilemma... i cut him off and i kind of have a contender on deck, but we haven't done anything yet. i'm hella nervous if something does happen.. i feel like a hypocrite because i told myself (and some friends) that the next time i have sex i'll be in a relationship but i don't even want one right now 😭😭 i guess i'm just scared of judgment... also scared of attachment... someone talk me off the ledge 😂 (the ledge being scared of being with someone else and judgment bc i do wanna fuck this dude)