Right, so, story time ladies!

My partner and I met around 10 months ago. Fell pregnant almost straight away..

At first we were both excited, choosing names and planning our future as a family.

Then he fell into a depressive spiral, as his ex took everything including his 2 children and his house when she found out i was pregnant.

We split for awhile when he admitted he resented me for him losing everything he held dear. He said I trapped him. He wanted me to abort the baby..

I couldn't. We had given her a name and planned our future, how could he even consider her a burden? Let alone ever consider getting an abortion. I said no, told him he didn't have to do or be anything he didn't want to and that I won't ever make him be a father to her. He can walk away if that's what he wants, but I am keeping my daughter. We split and I moved in with my sister.

Fast forward a few months, we had stayed in contact and even reconciled a few times, and then fallen apart all over again. He wanted to be with me, but did not want to acknowledge the baby what so ever. I was pregnant, alone and scared, so when he wanted to come home, I let him everytime.

Once again, we are back together. We got a house together to raise our daughter. He still hasn't been overly involved at all, but the bar has been set so low that I just want him here. I don't want to do this alone.

I always assumed that when he held his baby for the first time his attitude would change and he would love her instantly like I do.

Things were finally looking positive. We are gonna be a family.

I am due in 3 days, and just asked him if he is excited.

He said no.

I asked what he is feeling, and he said he feels nothing..

What?!

I shouldn't be surprised.. but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I thought we were past this..

She deserves better. She deserves someone who would move mountains for her, and he feels nothing.

I'm just.. lost. My family all say We deserve better, but he is still her father. I don't want to be the reason she grows up without him, but I also don't want her to always be disappointed by him like i am.

Long story, I know.

I really love this group, and hope it's okay to just have a vent here..

Do I hold on and just hope that he loves her like a father should?

I still tell him that he can leave if that's what he wants, but I think he feels obliged to be here, even if it is resentfully.

Is he ever going to be the father she deserves?

What do I do??!