Long story kinda short, I don't have much of a relationship with my mother anymore. She has a big problem with drugs, alcohol, and lying to me. I don't need that in my life and I will not have that around my future children.

Before I stopped talking to my mother she knew I was pregnant the beginning of last year. I miscarried in March. Right after I had bought myself a charm bracelet to remember my angle. (I don't wear it anymore). Since my due date in October had passed I don't think about it much anymore.

My mom keeps trying to reach out to me and I just can't talk to her. I know what she will do if I talk to her. She will think everything is ok between us and it isn't. If I give her an inch she will take a mile. She sent me a Christmas present. I open it and this is what was in the box.

If you can't read it is says "Your wings were ready, but my heart was not"

I am extremely touched by this gift, but I have such mixed feelings. I was finally no longer thinking back on my miscarriage and just focused on ttc again. Now after receiving this I am starting to think about it again constantly. My one year anniversary from my miscarriage is approaching quickly, but thankfully I will be on a cruise then with my husband. The perfect distraction. My mother doesn't know about the cruise. But right now my emotions are so mixed up by this gift. I don't know what to do.