Someone I love very very much is down [my husband] 😭😭😭 ok I really need some support I won't be answering any question so please don't ask I will answer when I'm emotionally ready to do so.. I miss him so much I feel very alone and depressed I'm angry at the world I have his friend that is now my friend for support and his parents but im really struggling to find my sense of "purpose" without him and I have two beautiful babies but there's days/nights where I'm not ok and as much as I love him I honestly don't know how long I can just "act happy" while he's away.... my heart hurts everything I know he loves me unconditionally but I never thought I'd go through this. 😭💔

I would never just "up and leave" without reason of course and I want my babies to physically love on their daddy and us be a family and I know we will be but I feel very "disconnected" because now it's all up to me and getting him back on his feet for the both of us will be a struggle. Today is a day that I just can't cope without him it's hard everyday but especially the holidays