Postpartum Depression

I thought I was fine but I don’t think I am. My baby is almost a year old. I don’t have any friends. I don’t like being a stay at home mom. We are really poor right now so I try not to leave the house so as not to spend money. I love my baby so much but our life is boring. We do the same thing every day. I get mad when he cries at night because I’m so tired and I just want a break from being with him. My husband helps out but I just never feel like it’s enough. Which makes me feel guilty. We don’t have health insurance so I can’t go to a therapist or anything. But anyway it helps just posting it here.