Just recently ended a six-year relationship and no matter how bad he made me feel about myself, I can’t stop thinking about him.

For so many years I’m used to seeing him every single day making sure he’s eaten has clean clothes gets to work on time. And this past week of not seeing him or even know exactly where he’s at just don’t sit well with me.

His only friend was robbed and murdered on his porch and ever since that day all he’s cared about is that friends girlfriend. our relationship wasn’t perfect for the past couple years and it was actually very rocky and we had both fallen out of love with each other, he was never attracted to me because of my weight so he was never really affectionate with me or treated me like the queen that I was. & since he was really the only boyfriend I’ve ever had and we were together for so long, I loved him so much I just love his company and just being around him even when he was mean and didn’t wanna talk to me, but of course I can be a bitch.

He told me she was more important than me that he had to uplift her because she was a widow and there was no reason for me to be uplifted. I know he’s had to have had feelings for her for a long time. For years all I begged for from him with love and affection and kisses and he never would give it to me saying he just wasn’t that kind of person. Yet so instantly he could give it to that bitch.

All the fucked up hurtful shit he said to me while we were arguing and yet I still can’t stop thinking about him