I recently found out one of my favorite people in the world is pregnant. I seriously spent like 30 minutes just squealing in excitement. I've got an Etsy cart of stuff just waiting to be purchased for her little bundle.

I'm proud of myself because I haven't once felt my excitement for her clouded by the usual pang of longing I get when I learn of a pregnancy. But it does make me anxious for my body to hurry up and re-calibrate itself after I stopped taking birth control (it hasn't even been a full cycle yet so I'm just being inpatient).

I don't know, community, I guess I'm just feeling kind of strange thinking to myself "I'm so happy for her, but..."