Scared

I’ve been with fiancé for about 4 1/2 years now and to sum it up he’s amazing! So kind, helpful, trustworthy and the list goes on. About year 2 in our relationship I knew I wanted to marry the guy and have his children... fast forward to today, we’ve purchased a home and today, about 2 hours ago I found out I’m pregnant! I’m shocked and I still can’t believe it. We were never really careful these past years and I never got pregnant. At one point I believed I had fertility issues because there was never a scare. I was so convinced I couldn’t have children and a bit sad and mad and disappointed at myself. I was going to drink some wine today but my period is 12 days late (normal for me) but decided against it before taking the test. Something inside me told me to take the test. I’m still a bit in denial and I don’t know what to do. I love him and I’ve always wanted his babies 👶 but now that I’ve taken two test I don’t know how to feel. I don’t know how I’ll do it. This life is scary, it’s a scary world. I’m afraid to bring life unto this evil world. I need some encouraging words right now. I haven’t told anyone I know.