*Updated*

Upon my last posting, a few asked for an update.

I played board games with them recently at their house. We targeted each other and made sexy jokes, but nothing came of it. I’ve dropped some cues that I’m not into it, because....

On Monday I went out with a different (but really good) lady friend of mine to a tame NYE brunch. After, we became so much less tame and I deep kissed for god knows how long in my car until we decided to relocate to her house. Once we got there, I restrained her hands, blindfolded her, and pleasured her with touch. It was so hot to be on top and in control as she was experiencing pleasure.

Since, I’ve had some anxiety and have been doing a lot of processing and this is where I become a major killjoy, but I’m toying with the idea of not pursuing poly. I’m questioning whether or not it’s right for me.