I feel like I completely skipped baby blues, but now with my 2 month old and going back to work I feel like I have post partum depression. I don't necessarily like one the people who watch my kid. I come home for my lunch break to pump and cry and then I put on my work smile and get back to my job. I know I need help but I just feel like they'll mark it off as just feeling sad. I have ptsd and a history of anxiety and depression. I took therapy while pregnant but now I feel like I can't fit it into my schedule with my full time job. I just don't know what to do and I just feel like I want to cry every second. I bond with my son just fine but sone days I just get home from work and don't even want to touch him because I feel so depressed and it begins to make me even more upset. I just don't know what to do