So my little one is 4 months old...and has every second of my time which I love but occasionally a friend offers to keep him for a night to let me "get my breath back"...He's currently going through sleep regression and I'm constantly tired... me and his father are not together the relationship was toxic but we are civil for little noahs sake. However friends and family are increasingly saying I need time for myself that I need some "me" time and someone to appreciate me meaning sex ...the last time I had sex was conception 🙄 you do the maths...im in no way ready for a committed relationship but I do have a close friend who in the past we have dabbled in that side of things just casually so I'm completely comfortable with him..usually... however I had a dream that it was perfect sexually and since then I've been a nervous wreck when it comes to sex...I had a c section so I don't have the silly excise of what if i look different etc...I love sex when I'm comfortable with it and some male attention would be lovely... I don't know what's wrong with me my body wants to but my mind is like ooohhh scary...I lost my virginity 10 years ago lol so it's definitely not beginners nerves I'm not sure if it has something to do with body confidence my post pregnancy body isn't as curvy as it used to be or if it's just nerves and anxiety because it's been so long what do you guys think ever been through this? If so...how do I get the nerves to go away and just "go with it"?.... I know Some people will judge me but what's a social media post without a little judgement huh?