It’s been about 5 or so weeks since I fled my daughter’s father and I decided to reach out to him finally. To release the anger of everything he has done to me and her through email. I don’t know why I did it. I thought maybe he’d come to a realization of how messed up he was. That didn’t work obviously...I even begged him to get counseling so I know he’s trying and we could start doing visitations. He refuses to get help. Basically blamed me for everything and told me he doesn’t care that I’m homeless. (Which btw, he made us.) So I told myself no more. No more reaching out to him. No more trying. I couldn’t block his email address but I was so determined to not message him anymore... I just deleted my whole email. I’m hoping this sticks. I’m hoping I don’t break down even though as hard as it is with two kids. It’s really hard. This single mom stuff. Extremely hard on you physically and mentally.