As I’m laying in bed, waiting for a text back, all I’m thinking about is how things changed and can change so fast, I’m sixteen I have my whole life ahead of me and thinking about it scares me. But the fact that I have such an amazing man in my life makes me think about all the wonderful miracles that have happened in my life and it makes me feel so damn great full I have the people I have in my life. Don’t get me wrong thinking about him leaving me makes me scared, and it makes me anxious and all these emotions but the way he holds me and kisses me and hugs me makes me feel safe. As I continue to lay here and think about this stuff it makes me all these emotions at once, I feel happy yet sad and nervous but it’s love, and I’m never gonna say any different, every person has their fears and every person has a different backstory so here’s mine:

At 5 my parents got divorced as my father is an alcoholic and a cross dresser, we moved in with my grandparents and I never trusted another man in my whole life other than my grandfather. At 6 we moved out on our own when my mom had enough money to support me and my 2 sisters on her own. My mom had started seeing a new guy and was as happy as can be, it had taken me a while to let him in. At 7 we moved in with him and had been content and ok with our family. At 8 I moved to Naples Italy and we lived there for about 5 years, I was continuously bullied and picked on about my weight and looks. We moved back in 2016 and continued to live in the same house. As I grew up I started to learn who people were, fake friends, people who take what they want and leave, and over all bad people. I had been broken hearted 4 times before I finally found not only someone I needed but wanted, and I am so thankful that I have such a great man by my side as I have all of my breakdowns. He is always there as a shoulder to cry on and I couldn’t be more happy.

Lesson learned:

Love comes so unexpected and worst thing you can do is ignore it.

Also here’s my bf and I😁