Continuing #2

Okay , so NOW .

you are going to hear the greatest love story / novela of all time.

Which is still continuing as we speak. So actually it might not have a fairy tale ending but lets hope it does.

So when i turned 13 i had a birthday party at my cousins house and they invited TONS of people. And there i met him . we can call him J . i honestly felt butterflies the moment we made eye contact. It was wierd, i had never felt that before. So because i had a crush i would tell my dad every weekend to take me to my aunts house and he would tell his mom to take him there too. (They're long time family friends) and we would talk and do all that wierd as shit that kids would do before. 😂 and he gave me my very first kiss exactly a year after we met. And i was so excited i couldn't stop smiling the whole day. And so that went on for a while. We would just hang out and have fun at parties and stuff. But when i turned 15 i stopped going . i started hanging out with friends near my house. (He lived in san Bernardino and i in los Angeles. ) we would see each other maybe 2 times a year at family events, but regardless of how much time had passed we would always go back to talking the same way, and we would flirt and everything would be perfect for that day. And then we would return to our lives and "forget" but he was always there in the back of my mind. As i am sure i was in his. I can honestly say that. there is no doubt in my mind or heart that he felt the same way about me as i did about him.

One day he changed. I saw him and he looked broken and he looked lost and i didnt know how to fix him so i stayed away and he spiraled, he hung out with bad people. He did drugs, and i kept my distance. In retrospect i should have been there, i should have helped him but i didnt and i regret it to this day.

He needed to see me, but my family wouldnt let him, i wouldnt let him.. He ended up in jail because he tried so hard to get to me.

He was there for a year and i was angry at him for doing this to himself and to me. Because i felt guilty for what had happened.

(I know that what i did next was wrong and i know many will judge me but its the truth and its something i regret and have to live with for the rest of my life )

I slept with his brother .

Of all the things i have done its the thing i regret most. All his family knew and when he got out of jail they told me that they wouldn't mention it if i stayed away from him.

So i stayed away because i didnt want to break his heart. Because he loved me more than his own life.

I started my family, then my family shattered(maybe karma gave me what i deserved)

Now at 22 he has been clean for 4 years, he has been living his life away from me.

Until about 1 month ago when i recieve a call from him, and it was exactly the same. All the love i thought was gone was there. And we talked all night and we made plans and we forgave each other and we cried and laughed and i thought maybe we could have something real , maybe we where meant to be apart for so long to grow and brought back together for a reason. Maybe the reason was to love each other for real this time, for all the time we couldnt.

And it IS like what you see in the movies. Because i see fireworks everytime we kiss. Because it feels so right and he compliments my soul. He fits in my heart so perfectly, and the times i had loved before dont come even close to what this is. It is different and i believe it can overcome anything. But we will have to see.

Ill update you guys ✌