I am so mad at myself my feelings towards my bd. He ain't sh*t but I really wanted to try to make it work. Life is hard and i just want to give up on love but I feel like its not meant for me. I am depressed bc I try so hard and I never seem to get pass go in life. I work hard, Pray and eat right. I love family n life but have no one to share my love or life with on an emotional companionship level. I have made some good decisions and bad but the vibe of love is killing.me slowing from the inside out...